long time, no posts.

i really haven't felt like writing in here for the last week or so because i just don't think i have many constructive things to say.

i've been getting destroyed and i've given up on cash for right now. i know i don't play perfect and i feel that i have the ability to judge my play and be unbiased but right now i just cannot get anything going and it's extremely frustrating.

since my last blog i lost about 8 buy-ins at 100nl 6max and heads-up. i dropped down to 50nl for a couple days and the ridiculousness continued until i dropped about 6 buy-ins there.

i took a day off and decided that i needed to get back to mtt's and large field sngs to re-build my br. unfortunately i've been unable to get it going in this avenue as well and my bad run hasn't shown any signs of slowing down.

i had originally thought about posting a bunch of hands but its pointless. everyone runs bad and knows what it's like.

i must say this is the worst downswing and bad run i have ever been on. i lost over 2k in the month of June and thats quite a bit when considering i started it w/ a br of only about 4k.

i haven't played this week so far but i have made my return tonite. i spent the whole week watching mtt videos on cardrunners and pxf hoping to find some flaws in my thinking and i believe i did.

so far tonite has been a bit of a downer but im still left in two mtts.

i played the 6pm $24 on ftp and went deep before this hand.

http://www.pokerhand.org/?1240411

i picked up KK the next hand and got no action and was out a couple orbits later.

the 7pm $69 went horribly as i ran KK into AA early. i held on to my 395 chips and doubled up w/ A8s vs some rag hand and the very next hand shoved AQo into KK.

i played a couple 45 person sngs and got a bit unlucky. i ran QQ into AA once and flopped a set against a straight the other time.

still left in the $5 rebuy nl 6max mtt and the $24 limit holdem. both have had some of the most atrocious play i've ever seen so you never know. i might get lucky!

tg

edit: squeeze gone wrong in the rebuy, just left in the limit.